Goodbye Lew
Dec. 2nd, 2013 04:55 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
londonronnieI think I'm starting to gradually come to terms with Lew's death. At least, I'm not sobbing all the time like I was on Thursday when the awful news was confirmed, and the tears aren't coming quite so often now. Although having said that the smallest little thing is quite likely to set me off again; a photo, a memory, the words of other fans...
I suppose it hasn't helped that I've been immersed in Pros and Lew related activities over the past few weeks. This is always a busy time in fandom, isn't it, and I've had several projects on the go lately. I'd recently completed the Lewis Collins calendar for next year, I'd almost finished making the Christmas greeting for the LC website, and for several nights before the news hit us I'd been screencapping and gathering photos for the website's advent calendar (which we'd decided to revive this year after last year's hiatus). Strangely enough on Wednesday night I'd been screencapping Cuckoo Waltz and had been playing the dvd in slo-mo with the sound muted so that I could capture just the right moment, and as I watched Lew on the screen it struck me that even after all these years he still took my breath away. And then on Thursday morning as I was laying in bed trying to decide to get up I had an idea for a silly little vid that I could post for my day on the DiaLJ Christmas challenge... and so it was that with all these thoughts running through my head I picked my phone up and read Mike McCartney's tweet...
Needless to say, the advent calendar won't now be appearing, and the Christmas greeting will be changed to something more appropriate. We've decided to go ahead with the calendar though, I think it'll be a nice way to keep our Lew in folks' hearts and minds over the coming year. But I won't be doing the vid for my day on DiaLJ (which is tomorrow) although luckily I already had something else prepared. It would have been a light-hearted little thing and I'm just not in that frame of mind at the moment. Maybe I'll put it on hold for next year...
This coming Saturday is the annual CI5mas gathering in London. I know it's going to be an emotional sort of day but I'm really looking forward to seeing everyone. My fellow Lew-fans have all been extremely supportive of each other online (thank goodness for Pros fandom!) but nothing beats having a real-life hug! Oh, and I'm going to see Twelve Angry Men on Thursday night, which I had been getting more and more excited about but now I keep having to remind myself what I'll be doing that night! I am still looking forward to it, but it's been overshadowed really.
My photos of Lew are still looking down on me from the wall above the computer as I type this and it's getting easier now to look back at them. I still can't bring myself to watch him on screen though, looking all bright-eyed and bushy-tailed and full of life.
Well, this has really lived up to my LJ heading of "Ronnie's Ramblings", I'm afraid. Hopefully I'll be a bit more compos mentis when I next post.
I suppose it hasn't helped that I've been immersed in Pros and Lew related activities over the past few weeks. This is always a busy time in fandom, isn't it, and I've had several projects on the go lately. I'd recently completed the Lewis Collins calendar for next year, I'd almost finished making the Christmas greeting for the LC website, and for several nights before the news hit us I'd been screencapping and gathering photos for the website's advent calendar (which we'd decided to revive this year after last year's hiatus). Strangely enough on Wednesday night I'd been screencapping Cuckoo Waltz and had been playing the dvd in slo-mo with the sound muted so that I could capture just the right moment, and as I watched Lew on the screen it struck me that even after all these years he still took my breath away. And then on Thursday morning as I was laying in bed trying to decide to get up I had an idea for a silly little vid that I could post for my day on the DiaLJ Christmas challenge... and so it was that with all these thoughts running through my head I picked my phone up and read Mike McCartney's tweet...
Needless to say, the advent calendar won't now be appearing, and the Christmas greeting will be changed to something more appropriate. We've decided to go ahead with the calendar though, I think it'll be a nice way to keep our Lew in folks' hearts and minds over the coming year. But I won't be doing the vid for my day on DiaLJ (which is tomorrow) although luckily I already had something else prepared. It would have been a light-hearted little thing and I'm just not in that frame of mind at the moment. Maybe I'll put it on hold for next year...
This coming Saturday is the annual CI5mas gathering in London. I know it's going to be an emotional sort of day but I'm really looking forward to seeing everyone. My fellow Lew-fans have all been extremely supportive of each other online (thank goodness for Pros fandom!) but nothing beats having a real-life hug! Oh, and I'm going to see Twelve Angry Men on Thursday night, which I had been getting more and more excited about but now I keep having to remind myself what I'll be doing that night! I am still looking forward to it, but it's been overshadowed really.
My photos of Lew are still looking down on me from the wall above the computer as I type this and it's getting easier now to look back at them. I still can't bring myself to watch him on screen though, looking all bright-eyed and bushy-tailed and full of life.
Well, this has really lived up to my LJ heading of "Ronnie's Ramblings", I'm afraid. Hopefully I'll be a bit more compos mentis when I next post.
